school

so school starts tomorrow. not for me, but for a lot of the kiddos i see. school brings about a few changes in my work....consistency {thank God} and a little bit later hours... it makes for kinda a funky schedule since i have the mornings to fit in as many daycare kids i can get, then a break and then after school to fit in as many school age kids as i can. {i work in home health and its a confusing world, no need to explain much farther just take my word for it}

the start of a new school year, brings up feelings of when i was in school. {besides who am i kidding, i still go by semesters ... clay is in school so that's my excuse} most specifically a fresh start. so to embrace this "fresh start" i want to strive for a few goals to accomplish during this next school year.

~i want to use my planner that my sweet husband bought for me. my short term memory consistently fails me. things just fall out of my head. like the 3 soccer games i have missed just b/c ...they are every friday but yet i can't seem to get it in my head.

~learn to cook. i don't know why i just never really learned how to cook. my mom does and she is really good....but the kitchen to me is unfamiliar territory. for some reason i just thought i would get married and cooking would just poof!! somehow start coming together for me. so i am determined {truly this is not julie/julia moment, i seek no glory in my attempts} but just to go through a cook book, any cook book. preferably an easy one.

~work out consistently. now i know that this is always on people's to do/ new years resolution blah blah blah, but here is my deal....i really used to run consistently. like 3-4 times a week i was running 3 miles. and then i got married...and for whatever reason it so hard to get motivated.

~be more productive with my time. my job is all over the place literally, therefore i am all over the place all the time. so really this could be called better time management. i guess you could say i'm still adjusting to life post college which in truth is pretty pathetic when i am 2 years out. but the working world.....ugh it is so hard to balance husband, friends, life, grocery shopping, bible studies, working out, laundry, cleaning, cooking, etc etc etc....it just stresses me out truly. which when i get stressed out i freeze. i just don't do anything. completely counter productive i realize that but i can be a perfectionist. and when i can't do things well then i just don't do anything.

~finish some design projects that have taken me over a year to finish. they are simple yet daunting. i have 5 chairs that i need to spray paint. i have done 2 and ran out of spray paint. i need to by more to finish the others and i just haven't done it.

~lastly i want to live in the now. clay is in school. ultimately we will move somewhere. and for me that is justification to just always be on the edge of the things i do. i don't make efforts in some relationships b/c sinfully i feel like its only temporary. which in some sense it but so is everything.... the bigger picture that i keep overlooking is that the Lord is very purposeful in His timing. we are here in fort worth for a very specific reason. so the people that i am surrounded by, the things i do are all part of His greater plan to sanctify me.

so yes, here is to school and this hopeful fresh start in my life =)